Adventures of crying on the phone and again over an Amazon package.
So lets set the scene. Im sitting at home, feeling kinda tired and hungry and puffy. I had literally just got off the phone with my WCB case manager, who minutes prior to us hanging up had asked me the triggering question of, “it says here in your file that you were having a hard time managing a balance with your work, personal life and injury.” Im not a talker, I dont talk about my problems- I just deal with them until they are fixed or gone or they no longer matter. So with everything happening in life lately, the issues with Emelyn; which are a lot more than I’ve shared on social media, balancing working and the guilt of not being home to help as much with Emelyns challanges, and then my injury which limited my abilities, but also put me in a spot of feeling like a freeloader because I was so used to carrying my own weight and its hard to ask for help, or to limit yourself from always striving to do your best work. Its all hard. Anyhow, trying to express that to my case worker was quite the challenge because I was just a blubbering mess.
Anyhow, to continue on…
As I got off the phone, my watch alerted me that someone was at the front door. I went and Amazon was dropping a package… which was weird, my stuff wasnt suposed to come till tomorrow… sure enough the package was addressed to me. I opened it up and was kinda confused, it was like a plastic shopping bag full of something in inside. I was so confused…. i knew I didnt order this- sure eough I found the package message.
Well, if I wasnt a blubbering mess before this, it was like a whole repeat of earlier. My little sister sent me japanese snacks because she knew I was having a hard time recently and wanted to cheer me up ❤
I am definitly feeling a lot cheerier! My life isnt any more figured out or solved- but now I have something new to focus my attention on- figureing out what each of the enclosed snacks are, because they are all written in Japanese. Ill have to share more about them in another post sometime.
Originally it was in my mind that I was going to do a 48 day challenge, as my husband is being sent away for some probably super fun military training for 6-7 weeks and I figured that would be a good pastime for me, as well as something to accomplish while he is away.
As I was writing out my plan, and as always I get super anxious and excited about starting these challenges. If you have followed me over the years – though its been a while- I have done a few challenges like the 30 day squat challenge, 30 day plank challenge, 30 day Barre workout challenges as well as many eating and no drinking( man it sucks) challenges. So, with this challenge, as usually – I want to start right away…. like right now.
I obviously need to learn and exercise(exercise… hahaha!) a little patience. It’s a work in progress, but instead of a 48 day challenge, I will be starting a 60 day challenge. This gives me essentially 8 weeks to give it my all and see what I can accomplish.
While I have already written out what my daily fitness goals will be – I am not going to be sharing them before hand. This is because I might be changing them as I go along. I have written out my daily goals as a guideline. I am going to push myself, I am going to work hard, but I am also going to listen to my body and do what is right for that day. If I have a little extra energy at the gym – maybe I will do a little more. If my body is telling me no – I will listen to it and take a rest day.
Along with fitness, I will also be working on some eating goals. I have two kids, my husband will be gone for most of this challenge, I am hoping that this will go smoothly and I won’t be hiding in my room binging on a bag of chips because I haven’t eaten all day due to crazy kids sucking all my energy and motivations since they woke up. 😛
I am going to attempt to cut out all POP, JUNK FOOD, TAKE OUT, FAST FOOD, PIZZA, etc. I am going to attempt no eating out – however If I do take the kids out – I will choose wisely and healthily. I feel lucky that my daughters favourite restaurant is Swiss chalet and they have a pretty good selection of healthier foods to choose from.
I will be taking my body measurements, and I hopefully will take some before photos. Both of which I may or may not share at the end of this challenge. I am hoping, and will be working hard to see results. Big results or small results – i don’t care, I am just looking to spend the next 60 days working towards a better version of me. A hobby to keep me busy and something “ME” to focus on.
I hope that you will follow my journey over the next 60 days as I post pictures and updates on how things are going. This is my accountability, my motivation to keep myself going. Without you, I might deteriorate into a couch potato eating junk and not doing anything to improve myself. So please pop onto my feed once in a while and like a photo, leave me a comment, or if you haven’t seen me update for a bit – ask me what the heck am I doing?! 😛
Thanks for reading all this, I am excited to get started on my challenge.
I’ve been feeling a bit off lately. I am guessing that it is from the month off of working out as December was a chaotic month, I just needed wanted the extra time in my day to get things done. I spent a lot of the month drinking and eating and not being active at all.
It was about half way through the month when I thought – I really need to get back on track, I need to do another “diet”/eating challenge. It was then that I decided that for the month of January I would give up drinking alcohol, gluten, junk food ( pop chips candy gum) and fast food. I have noticed that when I go on these challenges that I always feel so much better – less bloating, more energy and less flatulence (the world is cheering now!)… ( and yes I italicized the word flatulence to make it seem more gassy…everyone farts – don’t judge 😛 )
Its a good thing that I am starting this challenge today. I woke up this morning and stepped on the scale to both check out what weight I was starting this challenge at….. and to see the damage that Christmas had done to me. Seriously, I did so much baking and it was so scrumptious… I just couldn’t stop… I should have.
8lbs.
I am beyond embarrassed and I am motivated to shed these pounds that I don’t need or want! (and hopefully I can work off a few more of that as I have definitely slipped on attaining my weight and/or pant size goals – whichever comes first 😉
With eating better for this month, I am going to resume being active. I am hoping to check out the new rec centre that opened up near my place, as well as I hope I can attend some barre classes as my body misses it!
Now, I was listening to the radio last night and they were talking statistics about New Years resolutions. 45% of people make them and only 8 percent of those people actually keep them. I don’t want to look at this like its a new years resolution. I feel like that would imply that this is something I am just starting, or that based on those statistics something that I am going to fail at. I think that first of all – I am not going to fail… and second, this is not something new that I’m trying to change, its a continuation of my work. Jan 1, 2015 just was a great day to start this challenge – its just a coincidence that it happens to be the start day of so many other peoples new years resolutions.
So for the month of January I will be avoiding gluten, junk food, booze, fast food… and basically just trying to make healthier home cooked meals. I will also be actively counting my calories to keep me from going overboard in my eating. I will also try and be active 4 days a week (as I have a few hours on the days my daughter goes to school). I hope that I can start a good pattern to push me to reaching my goals this year. I better tie myself to that wagon so I stop falling off!
What changes, challenges or goals do you have planned for 2015?
Good Luck to everyone who is starting a challenge, a new years resolution or a non new years resolution!
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